“We’re happy, free, confused and lonely at the same time. It’s miserable and magical…”
Words of wisdom from T-Swift. I remember when I first heard that lyric I thought “wow she really expressed exactly what it feels like to be in your twenties”. It’s so true. Sometimes I feel so happy and settled and okay with life. Other times it feels as if nothing is going my way. Some days I hop out of bed ready to conquer the world. Other days I can’t even bring myself to get out of bed to face the world. Some days I embrace my single lifestyle and other days I curse the world for all of the stupid men I encounter. This is all so confusing, and all so lonely.
I’ve been having some trouble lately adjusting to post-college life. Even though its been over a year and a half since I graduated, I still feel as if I am floating in space. In college I had a concrete goal- to graduate. Everything I did was working towards that goal. Heck everything I did in high school was working towards that goal. And then once I graduated my goal was accomplished. Don’t get me wrong I still have goals but they are much less defined and do not follow a nice timeline.
Sometimes I feel like I am not living, just existing. Teen-angsters have nothing on us twenty-somethings. I feel more lost now than I ever have in my life. And nobody ever warned me. It’s common knowledge that our teenage years are full of mood swings, hormones, broken hearts, and loneliness. But no one ever writes about what its like to be in your 20’s. Sure its great, but it’s also confusing. The more I write the more I realize- everyone feels this way.
So despite the title of this blog post, I don’t have a good answer. I have no idea how to cope with life after college. All I can say is sometimes you just have to put one foot in front of the other. It will get better.